its been awhile since i last posted smth..
just goes to show how busy i am at the moment..

hardly 2 months into the year and i already feel like ive been thru one heck of a rollercoaster..
the past month has been real indescribable for me in many ways..

i find myself being more irritated in class..as everett wld noe..our class is super noisy..not tt its a bad thing to have tt kinda atmosphere but the fact is tt its overdone..and lessons cant carry out with tt kinda noise.
i just cldnt see it last year..or maybe i see too much this year..
last year i guess i was kinda part of the noise..this year me and everett have kinda switched places and its my turn to yell for silence esp during lessons when ppl just have to make remarks for everything the teacher says..

am i too serious? maybe its just the weight i carry on my shoulders..its immense..
"i don't regret this life chose me" from a song by chris daughtry rings in my head..
do i regret? well..my answer's always been that i guess not..and den i'll just move on with it..

its been weary..having to train 4 times a week including a saturday morning..
responsibility is a huge word i try to carry..
i cant show my weakness for the better of others..
sec 4 is a really tough year even if ur not taking o levels..

speaking bout o levels ive gotta thank God for the b3 i managed in chinese last year.
real grateful for tt..kinda relieved too..

anw..seniority is tough.. setting a gd example for others.. everyone's watching ur every move..
there aint any room for mistakes.. and ive learnt to just accept tt as life..
soccer has been kinda heart-wrenching..
thrashed 5-0 in a game i gave my all by fairfield..
injured my groin in the process and was ruled out for the entire week..

im the poor sports rep who cant play sports..not exercising and watching other ppl play soccer is worse den torture..even if its just 3 days..
having kept a clean sheet for the 1st 10 mins and den falling behind 10 seconds after being subbed isnt any better..
we lost 3-2 to clementi in a game we shd have easily won..

its heart-breaking considering the fact we trained so hard for it and its the last time many will be playing together as a sch.

tt was on monday..
morale went rock bottom..
somehow we pulled off a sensational 5-4 victory over the mighty st gabriel's on wed.
i dint play cos of my groin and boy was i feeling left out..the entire team played their best game ever and i cld only watch from the sidelines..
anw..the victory was more impt.

thursday was another day i missed out on the fun as hockey thrashed bukit view 6-1 in the opening game of the tournament which we totally owned..
once again i cld only watch from the sidelines and my frens scored goals for fun..
haha..it was lots of fun i bet..

valentines day is just round the corner and ive had no time to get anything for anyone..
awww..so sad..i'll probably give hugs(hopefully no kisses) instead to some of my dear frens..
irony its right smack in the middle of what cld possibly be my busiest and most stressful week ever..

here's my schedule:
monday-lang arts test and probably make up physics test as well, soccer/hockey training
tues-hockey match against si ling
wed-soccer match against bendemeer, c math test i'll definitely miss
thur-hockey match against yu hua
fri-bio test, tuition

one word-
madness..
and tts the reason y im studying bio now..

ciao

cant say im looking forward to anything..
only taking everyday one at a time.

-tzup