its been awhile since i last posted smth..
just goes to show how busy i am at the moment..

hardly 2 months into the year and i already feel like ive been thru one heck of a rollercoaster..
the past month has been real indescribable for me in many ways..

i find myself being more irritated in class..as everett wld noe..our class is super noisy..not tt its a bad thing to have tt kinda atmosphere but the fact is tt its overdone..and lessons cant carry out with tt kinda noise.
i just cldnt see it last year..or maybe i see too much this year..
last year i guess i was kinda part of the noise..this year me and everett have kinda switched places and its my turn to yell for silence esp during lessons when ppl just have to make remarks for everything the teacher says..

am i too serious? maybe its just the weight i carry on my shoulders..its immense..
"i don't regret this life chose me" from a song by chris daughtry rings in my head..
do i regret? well..my answer's always been that i guess not..and den i'll just move on with it..

its been weary..having to train 4 times a week including a saturday morning..
responsibility is a huge word i try to carry..
i cant show my weakness for the better of others..
sec 4 is a really tough year even if ur not taking o levels..

speaking bout o levels ive gotta thank God for the b3 i managed in chinese last year.
real grateful for tt..kinda relieved too..

anw..seniority is tough.. setting a gd example for others.. everyone's watching ur every move..
there aint any room for mistakes.. and ive learnt to just accept tt as life..
soccer has been kinda heart-wrenching..
thrashed 5-0 in a game i gave my all by fairfield..
injured my groin in the process and was ruled out for the entire week..

im the poor sports rep who cant play sports..not exercising and watching other ppl play soccer is worse den torture..even if its just 3 days..
having kept a clean sheet for the 1st 10 mins and den falling behind 10 seconds after being subbed isnt any better..
we lost 3-2 to clementi in a game we shd have easily won..

its heart-breaking considering the fact we trained so hard for it and its the last time many will be playing together as a sch.

tt was on monday..
morale went rock bottom..
somehow we pulled off a sensational 5-4 victory over the mighty st gabriel's on wed.
i dint play cos of my groin and boy was i feeling left out..the entire team played their best game ever and i cld only watch from the sidelines..
anw..the victory was more impt.

thursday was another day i missed out on the fun as hockey thrashed bukit view 6-1 in the opening game of the tournament which we totally owned..
once again i cld only watch from the sidelines and my frens scored goals for fun..
haha..it was lots of fun i bet..

valentines day is just round the corner and ive had no time to get anything for anyone..
awww..so sad..i'll probably give hugs(hopefully no kisses) instead to some of my dear frens..
irony its right smack in the middle of what cld possibly be my busiest and most stressful week ever..

here's my schedule:
monday-lang arts test and probably make up physics test as well, soccer/hockey training
tues-hockey match against si ling
wed-soccer match against bendemeer, c math test i'll definitely miss
thur-hockey match against yu hua
fri-bio test, tuition

one word-
madness..
and tts the reason y im studying bio now..

ciao

cant say im looking forward to anything..
only taking everyday one at a time.

-tzup

freezing... (by Roar)

i wonder if its going to snow...
i think it'll be great to see snow in singapore...

anyways, been really cold every morning as i wake up. Shivering and trembling despite having a thick blanket over me. This is too cold for me oledi la; so cold that it took me a long time to heal my running nose. Ah well.. since i happen to wake up especially early this morn, and since everyone has left for work and the bed is kept, i decided to endure a cold morning run. So i went for a jog, and while was jogging the Lord showed me again 1 Tim 4:8, where it says "for physical training is of some value, but godliness has value for all things, holding promise both for the present life and the life to come." What kind of promise? Actually I also dunno since Paul also never say what promise. But what i gather from here is that physical training is impt, and godliness also must be trained, bcuz it is more impt that fitness. So I must exercise as often as i can. Amen.

Daily Devotion from our church website (by Roar)

I read this today and felt really ministered by it... why dun u take a look too?

Title: The Heart of the ProblemAuthor: Warren Wiersbe
Read Psalm 10:12-18

David cried out and said, "God, You've got to take care of the situation." For several years Saul had been pursuing him. At one point David compared himself to a flea that was being chased. Saul's problem was that he was listening to liars in his court. Those who wanted Saul's favor were saying, "David wants your crown. He wants your throne. David said this, and David did that." They lied about him, and he could do nothing about it.
We have little control over the circumstances of life. We can't control the weather or the economy, and we can't control what other people say about or do to us. There is only one area where we have control--we can rule the kingdom inside. The heart of every problem is the problem in the heart. Once we get to that throne room inside us and let God take over, we don't have to worry about others.
David prayed in verse 12, "Arise, O Lord! O God, lift up Your hand! Do not forget the humble." The word humble is a key word. What is humility? Is it thinking poorly of ourselves? No, humility is simply not thinking of ourselves at all. Humility means admitting that I cannot handle my problem by myself. God is going to have to handle it by working in me and through me and for me. But before God can work for me or through me He has to work in me.
If you want to get on top of your circumstances, get beneath the feet of the Lord. Humble yourself, and He'll lift you up.
We cannot control the circumstances of life, nor can we avoid them. But we can take a humble attitude toward God. He takes a special interest in us and will help us handle our circumstances. Have you examined the throne room inside lately? Are you willing to let God work in you and through you to accomplish His purposes?

Reflections over the weekend - part 2 (by Roar)

"We proclaim him, admonishing and teaching everyone with all wisdom, so that we may present everyone perfect in Christ. To this end I labor, struggling with all his energy, which so powerfully works in me." - Col 1:28-29

I've forgotten cleanly about this verse if not for the Lord's reminder. This was one key verse Pastor used to teach us last weekend. Is it possible to present everyone perfect in Christ? I realised that what Paul means here, is that the believer grows perfectly well in God. He walks with God, loves God and knows God and he's still growing. It is impossible to make everyone in the church perfect, but just like a baby who is perfect bcuz he has all his limbs and body parts in place. And when he reaches the right age, he starts reading and walking - perfect in whatever stage of growth he is. Based on this definition, not every believer can be deemed 'perfect', bcus not everyone of them are where they are. So we must labor in prayer and in our teaching and service so that we present everyone, you , me, us, perfect in Christ. Let's aim for perfection! Amen.

need to wait so long.. Zzz

yo everyone, i hv been helping my dad in his workshop from monday to friday sometimes even sat for abt half a month liao so quite busy nowadays my Schedule very pack, everyday need wake up at 7:30 am and go out with them then lunch time go have my driving lessons, i've completed subject 25 upon 30 or 33 already. But have to wait for the Traffic police test date at around may or june lehz too many ppl born in dragon year(1988) learn driving. and lastly i'll be Having my FTT (Final Theory Test) on 25th jan.

lord i pray tt you will grant sucess to everyone i know and relief them from stress of the world, give us faith to move mountains and revive the dead. AMEN!

Shaun Signing Off

Today's Devotion (by Roar)

The Lord has been affirming in my heart his word that's written in 1 John 4:4-6
"You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world. They are from the world and therefore speak from the viewpoint of the world, and the world listens to them. We are from God, and whoever knows God listens to us."

Frankly speaking, during the past 2 weeks I felt a bit overwhelmed by the excessive lectures & things that were crowding over my life. I felt overpowered by Satan. I even came to a point where I actually believed that Satan is stronger than me - since he rules over everything in this world. And of course, I felt terrified and weak.

Therefore when God revealed this truth upon my heart again, I really repented in dust & ashes. This word gave me great inspiration to live & fight victorious ever since. And I claim the Lord's resurrection power over my life. Amen!

Reflections over the weekend (by Roar)

The Lord signaled to me to get things right before moving on with this year. The INNER HEALING camp provided the right atmosphere & time for me to settle scores with God - & I must say tat it has been a truly fruitful time with the Lord.

I rem the Lord said to me, "You have to roar again." You must understand that God uses very straightforward & clear language with me. I understand it is time to fight like a warrior again, to roar against the forces of darkness again & now is the time to claim back the territories that God wants to give to me. It's been a long time since I really get myself involved in spiritual warfare. But Ps Eugene reaffirms what God is saying to me on Sun, quoting from 2 Tim 2:3 "Endure hardship with us like a good soldier of Christ Jesus." I understand tat as I fight, i must fight with endurance, and i must believe God for what I'm fighting for. He wants to release my inner man again; the fighter that once fought hard against those unseen enemies; resilient, aggressive & unshakeable, and yet was forced to recede by a great setback. Today he is coming back, and the glory of the Lord will return upon him. Thank you Lord.

I was really pleased to see that everyone was having fun last nite. It seems that Huimin's cell has been growing at quite an incredible rate. Also very happy to see Weiling & Yingru. And of course, I finally got to play pool again. It is truly a blessing to be able to spend such time with my spiritual family.

Read Ps 77 and some portions of Numbers today. Still meditating on them. I like Psalms so much, cuz it says out everything i want to tell God. Something I found to be very useful over the weekend: Pray for sanctification & protection over my mind from ungodly stuff, in place of all negative thoughts, optimism , purity & great inspiration abt things - I'm seeing very good results in my mental life today.

The biblical foundation of u pple are poor. That is of concern; bcuz ur weak faith makes u weak against satan's constant harrassment. I'll be doing up a weekly devotion worksheet to ensure that u guys start getting to know ur stuff, otherwise, there's no need to talk about spiritual fathering.